The difficult life of an english teacher in Japan. Work, work, work all the time. Never any chance to unwind, explore, or actually have a little fun. Ok, well sometimes, I manage to escape the monotous doldrums of the day to day and, just for a moment, see what Japan is really like. You guessed it--chopsticks and alcohol. P.S.-- "I've gone."

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

The Adventure Continues

That's right folks. Don't forget to check out the autobiographical, self-indulgent, documentary musings of my life in San Francisco at:

http://gaijin1818.blogspot.com.

See ya on the flipside.

Peace.

~stephen

Farewells and Goodbyes and such






Well, the adventure is over, and much like most of my time in Japan it's been bittersweet. Took a trip to Shizuoka over the weekend to say goodbye to everyone. I had a great time, but it was pretty sad as well. About 25 of us went to nomihodai at my favorite izakaya. Afterwards some of us headed to a couple hours of karaoke, and once that ended some of us headed to a couple more hours of karaoke. The end of the night--or morning--was spent winding down in Denny's with Ainsley and Mick. I made it back to David's place around 9am, and ran into three Nova teachers on their way to work.

The next day I wandered around reflecting. I decided it was best to head home that night--I had originally planned to stay for three days. I met Ainsley for kaitenzushi (that's the conveyer-belt sushi) and icecream, and then it was time to say goodbye. Then I met Emi-chan at the station to say goodbye to her. Depressing.

I did learn a few things while I was there, though: 1. I'm getting really sick of saying goodbye. 2. Feelings of nostalgia are hard to overcome, but sometimes common-sense has to take priority. Since I left Shizuoka not much has changed but the people. And while I do like the people, I'm not ready to be so stagnant. That's not to say that everyone there is in a rut, but if I had stayed I would be.

Anyway, the past two days have been spent packing, cleaning, and running last minute errands. I have to be out of the apartment by noon, but my flight isn't till around 7pm. Unfortunately, there's not much I can do with all my luggage, so I'll be passing time with a book in the airport. Silver-lining: It only takes about an hour to get to Kansai airport, and it costs less than 1,500 yen. That's compared to almost four hours and around 15,000 yen to Narita airport from Shizuoka.

To the friends I'm leaving: Thanks for everything. Goodtimes, and bad, you made the experience worthwhile. I hope you stay in touch.

To Emi: Chin up. Everything will be ok.

To Ainz: See you soon. Don't know what I'll do without your texts in the meantime, though.

To David: Thanks again. You're a great guy, and a superb roommate.

To Fuz: Enjoy the rest of your time in Nippon. Good luck back home. Keep me updated.

To my friends in the States: Hope to see you soon. I'll let you know when I get a phone number.

Friday, November 11, 2005

Once again...


I apologize, but I can't stop thinking about the view I was trying to express days ago. I keep returning, at least intellectually, to this pervasive mentality of "Us versus them". And I keep returning to the seemingly unrelated work of Murakami ("Underground", Vintage Press, 2002). Hope you're ready for some new, lengthy quotes that epitomize my feelings on the subject. If not, move on, this isn't for you.

Again, Murakami writes:

"What alternative is there to the media's 'Us' versus 'Them'? The danger is that if it is used to prop up this 'righteous' position of 'ours' all we will see from now on are ever more exacting and minute analyses of the 'dirty' distortions in 'their' thinking. Without some flexibility in our definitions we'll remain forever stuck with the same old knee-jerk reactions, or worse, slide into complete apathy...

"No study of the rationale and working of 'them', the people who instigated it, would be enough. Necessary and beneficial though such efforts might be, wasn't there a similar need for a parallel analysis of 'us'?...

"Unpleasant though the prospect might seem, it is important that we incorporate 'them', to some extent, within that construct called 'us'...But even more to the point, by failing to look for the key buried under our own feet, where it might be visible to the naked eye, by holding the phenomenon at such a distance we are in danger of reducing its significance to a microscopic level...

"All I mean to say is that something in that encounter, in their presence, must also have been present in us to necessitate such active conscious rejection. Or rather, 'they' are the mirror or 'us'!...

"Now of course mirror image is always darker and distorted. Convex and concave swap places, falsehood wins out over reality, light and shadow play tricks, But take away these dark flaws and the two images are uncannily similar; some details almost seem to conspire together. Which is why we avoid looking directly at the image, why, consciously or not, we keep eliminating these dark elements from the face we want to see. These subconscious shadows are an 'underground' that we carry around with us." (197-199)

In my opinion this means that we reject or ignore personal responsibility for the world we live in. Instead, we point fingers at a distant, darker (figuratively and literally) Other. This Other is the mirror image of us, not only because we view it as the epitome of everything we fight against, but also because it would and could not exist without our presence. We exist in opposition to its "otherness", and it exists in opposition to our aspirations for world dominance. And yes, now I'm consciously and perhaps conveniently leaving "our" and "us" vague and utterly undefined.

The world does not exist outside of "us" and our relationships with "others", and it's time that we take responsibility for the role we play.

(I've replaced parts of Murakami's text with ellipsis' in an effort to keep the content general, rather than focusing on the Aum gas attacks. I feel the text is relevant outside of this context and should be heard in a broader, global arena.)

Return of the...



FU MAN CHU!!!

What better way to spend my last few days in Japan than with Oriental face accessories? It's great too, because here people take it totally seriously, as if this is fashion. Maybe it's the same in the states, but it's always a joke to me. I found these self-portraits particularly funnty.

ps1-For those too ignorant to know the difference, the handle-bar mustache is no longer considered a "handle-bar mustache" when accompanied by a soul patch. It's a Fu Man Chu. Get it right.

ps2-I don't know why the pictures are sideways, but it just adds to my over-all hotness, I think.

ps3-I just noticed I wrote "funnty", but I think that's funnty, so I'm not gonna change it.

ps4-Tune In: We write "going to", two words, but we say "gonna", one stupid word. Every single english speaker says it this way, so get used to it.

Oden



This traditional Japanese winter-dish should be called "Oh, delicious." It's various foods, including fried tofu, daikon, egg, potato, octopus, konniyaku, etc, kept warm in a pleasant combination of water, sake, sugar and soy sauce. They seem to love that combination here, and so do I. This is one of those "better as left-overs meals". Oden is made even more delicious when complimented with spicy mustard. Take note, I try not to use those gaijin-friendly chopsticks.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

ugh...

Today was spent sick in bed. I woke up with possibly the worst headache I've ever had. And no, it had nothing to do with alcohol. I woke up around 5am and couldn't get back to sleep--my head was pounding. I called Nova at 8am and told them I couldn't come in today. The guy said, "are you going to the doctor?" I had to fight the urge to respond with, "that's really none of your concern." I'm not so friendly early in the morning, especially when I'm sick. Needless to say, they weren't happy. Probably a good thing I resigned because sick days aren't really Nova's thing, and I've had four of them in the past three months. Unfortunately, it's the season for sickies.

I always found it curious that Japanese people wear face masks when they're ill, but for some reason refuse to cover their mouths when they cough or sneeze. I mean, women cover their mouths when they laugh or smile, but not when they cough or sneeze. Why is that, do you think?

Anyway, it's 6pm, and I'd say it's time to jump in the shower. Maybe that will help me get rid of this headache. Silver lining: tomorrow's my last day of work.

Hope you're all feeling better than me. Take care.

~stephen

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Murakami on "Us versus them"


I am currently reading "Underground" (Vintage 2000), a non-fiction piece by Japanese novelist Haruki Murakami, which tackles the actual events and aftermath of the Tokyo subway gassing on 20 March 1995 (The title would be italicized if I had that option on Blogger). If you haven't yet read anything by him, you should. This particular book is filled with dozens of personal accounts of the sarin poisoning by those victims that Murakami could track down, and who would agree to be interviewed. He also offers a personal analysis on the Japanese collective psyche and the affect that the gassing has had psychologically.

Interestingly, to me anyway, he offers a critique of the "Us versus them" mentality that I addressed just last night. The context is somewhat different, but he comments on the effects of a horrifying, violent experience on a social conscience, and the role the media plays.

Murakami writes:

"High-flown excesses aside, the polemic put forth by the media was quite straight-forward in structure. To them, the moral principle at stake in the gas attack was all too clear: 'good' versus 'evil', 'sanity' versus 'madness', 'health' versus 'disease'. It was an obvious exercise in opposites...

"Thus, to a greater or lesser degree, people all jumped onto the 'right', 'sane', 'normal' bandwagon. There was nothing complicated about it. That is, placed alongside the likes of Shoko Asahara and the Aum cult, compared to the deeds they had done, the overwhelming majority of Japanese were indeed 'right', 'sane' and 'healthy'. It could hardly have been a more open-and-shut case. The media merely played along with this consensus and accelerated its force." (page 196)

He continues:

"If we are to learn anything from this tragic event, we must look at what happened all over again, from different angles, in different ways. Something tells me things will only get worse if we don't wash it out of our metabolism. It's all too easy to say 'Aum was evil.' Nor does saying 'This had nothing to do with 'evil' or 'insanity' prove anything either. YET THE SPELL CAST BY THESE PHRASES IS ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE TO BREAK, THE WHOLE EMOTIONALLY CHARGED 'US' VERSUS 'THEM' VOCABULARY HAS BEEN DONE TO DEATH.

"No, what we need, it seems to me, are words coming from another direction, new words for a new narrative. Another narrative to purify this narrative." (page 197)

[I have capitalized that sentence for emphasis.]

There has always been hatred and violence, and--depending on your definition--terrorism. That is not to say that there has to be. But where has all the finger pointing and name-calling gotten us? Have things gotten better, or are they getting worse?

For me it comes down to this: Do we choose to believe that people are inherently evil, or do we attempt to identify and rectify an environment that creates and encourages violent behavior motivated by hate?

(That's right, ladies and gentlemen, I have returned to that old "nature or nurture" cliche. Perhaps things become cliche because there is some truth to them.)

Monday, November 07, 2005

Difficult Times, Difficult Issues


This is in response to a speech given by Brigitte Gabriel at Duke University on the Israeli-Palestinian dilemma (available for your reading pleasure at http://www.lawschool.com/ remarks.htm ) that my Dad sent me. As you can tell, I wasn't entirely impressed. Whether her speech was intended to be academic in nature or simply an expression of personal political ideology, I cannot say. I don't propose to be any expert on the issue; my knowledge is admittedly limited. Keep in mind that this was originally written as an email. Hence, the lack of coherent introduction. It isn't always cohesive, and often abandons points before they come to fruition, but I wanted to share it anyway. Enjoy (or possibly hate it). I would like to hear your thoughts. v(^-^)v


[Gabriel discusses her experiences as an Arab in an Israeli hospital, and her surprise that the Israeli hospital staff was willing to treat the wounded, irrespective of their racial or religious identity. She then proceeds to compare the indiscriminant humanitarianism of the Israelis with the savage "barbarism" of Muslims in general, and Palestinians in particular.]


That's an interesting perspective. The part about the kind nature of the hospital staff was touching. Indeed, there should be more people like that in the world. It is also nice that this woman learned the importance of questioning state doctrine and the media.

The rest, however, I found to be strewn with broad, harmful generalizations and blatant racism. I found the following particularly offensive:

"The difference between the Arabic world and Israel is a difference in values and character. It's barbarism verses civilization. It's democracy verses dictatorship. It's goodness verses evil.

"Once upon a time, there was a special place in the lowest depths of hell for anyone who would intentionally murder a child. Now, the intentional murder of Israeli children is legitimized as Palestinian "armed struggle.""

Now, I in no way condone terrorist actions of any kind, and I don't want to give that impression. The methods currently employed by Islamic fundamentalists are despicable. However, it is an injustice to assert that these methods are supported by all Muslims; that all Muslims are, in fact, fundamentalists.

Brigitte Gabriel's rhetorical style makes it seem as though she is speaking not only as an Arab, but also as a Muslim, though she does not ever mention whether or not she practices such a "barbaric" religion. Consequently, I believe the listener is encouraged to come to the conclusion, "if a Muslim despises Muslims, why shouldn't I?" This notion of anti-Islamic barbarism she seems to condone is supported by decades of anti-Palestinian propaganda that has been fashioned by the American media, and hence the American government.

She is endorsing an "Us versus them" mentality, where the "Us" is capitalized while the "them" is not. Who the "Us" is comprised of is left fairly undefined, but the "them" is made quite clear: They are a barbaric people who embrace dictatorship. They are foreign (not "Us"). They are dangerous. The are evil. They kill children. After all, they are Muslim.

Perhaps Ms. Brigitte Gabriel was addressing certain aspects of an enormous issue per the request of those who invited her to speak. However, I believe it did her no favors to address the topic completely out of context. Two issues in particular would have helped to give a clearer idea of the horrific subject she was discussing, and could have made her seem a bit less racist: Namely, 1. The cause of the Israel-Palestinian dilemma, and 2. The state of terrorism in our current globalized world (after all, it is quite diverse).

1. Now, I am undecided as to where I stand on the issue in general, though I know that the international community has to work to come to a feasible solution. The burden should lie particularly heavily on the shoulders of the Allied nations, who took it upon themselves to divvy up land that was not theirs to give.

Let's imagine that those god-awful Commies, you know, those dreadful Russians (or worse yet, the United Nations), decided that, due to the injustices committed against them by the US, the Vietnamese were now entitled to New York state, and the Iraqis get California. How would the people of the United States respond? What would the displaced people of CA and NY think? Would they rebel? Perhaps adopt a "by any means necessary" attitude?

Granted, this exercise is a bit unfair, given that the US has committed devastating atrocities against the people of Vietnam and Iraq, which have been widely acknowledged. Perhaps I'm uninformed, or perhaps my memory simply fails me, but wasn't it the Nazis that committed genocide against the Jews? Why didn't the Jews get Berlin? I mean, several of the Holy sites in Israel are holy for Muslims as well, as I learned in my Comparative Religious Fundamentalisms class.

And what about the Gypsies, homosexuals, and others? Where's their country? (This is not an attempt to compare the scale of brutality afflicted upon the Jews with other groups, nor to downplay the tragic plight of Jews.)

2. Unfortunately, terrorism plagues our modern world. Groups like Al Qaeda have come to the forefront of our attention, and have, not too surprisingly, come to represent all of Islam to the Western world. It is important to remember, however, that terrorism is not uniquely an aspect of the Muslim world.

Where were the Muslims in the Oklahoma city bombing in 1995? And what role did Islamic fundamentalists play in the sarin gas attacks in the Tokyo subways, also in 1995? Oh, that's right, they were just a bunch of crazies, not Muslims. Aum Shinrikyo, the group responsible for the Tokyo attack, was a "cultish" religious group, but not based in any branch of Islam. And sarin is a German invention created by people who followed a more scientific creed.

And let us not forget the bloody massacre at Columbine High School in 1999, the population of which is as white-bread as they come.

There is plenty of evidence of terrorist acts committed by various groups throughout our modern history, some of them religiously motivated, and some of them not. It is important, I think, to question our current understanding of the definition of "terrorism". I believe it includes a lack of clear and expressed motives. It is not simply violence on a large scale. If that were the case, then the US administration would certainly be considered the largest terrorist organization on the face of the planet.

I would like to talk about State initiated terrorism committed by the US, but I don't have sources to cite, and I think I would do it no justice. It is worthwhile, however, to mention the repeated and systematic assassination of African-American leaders and organizations on American soil, instigated by the administration and conducted in large part by the FBI. To name a few: Martin Luther King, Jr., Malcolm X, Fred Hampton, the Black Panther Party, Mumia Abu-Jamal (Yes, I know he, as of yet, has not been assassinated. He has, however, been continually terrorized for the past 24 years), and MOVE. The US used these groups and individuals when it suited their needs, and disposed of them when they were no longer advantageous or considered dangerous.

In "Live from Death Row" (2002, Perennial Press), author Mumia Abu-Jamal considers the differences in the US administrations views of Martin Luther King, Jr. and Malcolm X. As he says, the US demonized Malcolm X's revolutionary, non-pacifist tactics and viewed them as the epitome of everything that is Black (Interesting that the Other--the Blacks, the Muslims--are consistently viewed as evil in juxtaposition to Us--the clean, the safe, the just, and the intelligent). In contrast, the fact that Martin Luther King, Jr. was Black was largely ignored, while his insistence on a non-violent approach was applauded.

Mumia Abu-Jamal writes:

"The system used the main nonviolent theses of Marin Luther King's life to present a strategy designed to protect its own interests--imagine the most violent nation on earth, the heir of Indian and African genocide, the ONLY nation to ever drop an atomic bomb on a civilian population, the world's biggest arms dealer, the country that napalmed over ten million people in Vietnam (to "save" it from communism), the world's biggest jailer, waving the corpse of King, calling for nonviolence!" (page 116)

Now consider that.

And isn't it interesting, the similarities that can be found between Martin Luther King, Jr. and the Israelis, or Malcolm X and the Muslims?

I guess it now shows, I don't know exactly where my opinion lies in this difficult debate, but I do feel strongly about the issue at hand. It seems that revolution--whether it's considered justified as the American Revolution, or an act of terrorism as was the case with many facets of the Civil Rights movement and the current Palestinian effort--is, time and again, a response to an environment that is perceived to be unjust, unfair, perhaps racist, and certainly driven by hatred and a strong sense of fear of a well-defined Other (The environment, that is, not the revolutionaries. Although they, too, experience feelings of hate).

It's time we address important issues without promoting fear-driven logic, which only contributes to the cycle of hate, violence, and yes, terror.

Saturday, November 05, 2005

New things...and SEX MACHINE!


Well, "Sex Machine" is just the name of a Korean bbq joint in Dotombori. But anyways...

Today was my last day in the junior high schools, and I have to say it was hard to say goodbye. Coincidentally, it was also parents' day at Ikuno, and the classrooms actually have removable walls so the parents could see what's going on. With 45 students in a class, there's no room for additional seeting.

I only taught two classes today, and they went well. It is funny though, that when teachers know parents will be present lesson plans change dramatically. At the end of my first lesson a few of the students even shed some tears while they were saying goodbye. Apparently, I'm not too shabby when it comes to teaching. I received numerous goodbye letters, with surprisingly good spelling and grammar, and an "M" keychain (for Moss, of course).

After classes I joined the student body for a viewing of "Around the World in 80 Days". If you haven't seen it, please don't. It was interesting that they had an enormous movie screen and real projector in the auditorium/gymnasium. Once the movie ended I headed up to the Japanese room for a traditional tea ceremony, which was pretty amazing. I was served macha and mochi, all in the traditional fashion. The downside was that I had to sit on my knees for about 30 minutes, which I'm just not fit for. Finally, I watched club practice. Then it was time to say goodbye. Sad.

Tonight was filled with chicken katsu curry topped with cheese and pickled...pickled some kind of vegetable. Delicious. Now, however, I feel like I might explode. Perhaps I over-indulged.

Five more days of work. 10 days until I'm on that plane. Pretty unbelievable, if you asked me. No, this is my blog. It's unbelievable whether or not you ask me. But please, ask me. Please?

Hope all is well.

Peace out.

-stephen

ps- UNKO!!! (That's a bit of junior high influence.)

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Pandarion and Zen



Well, Pandarion is Pandarion, but Zen is subjective



ps--Pandarion, aka Panda-lion to those english speakers, was a gift from my ex-flatmate Aussie Chris, available at any respectable Mister Donut. "Flatmate" was a shout out, because the correct term is obviously roommate, despite the fact that we never shared a room. Well, I did take his room after he left, but that's beside the point. We weren't mates in a "flat" sense either. Always full of dimension.

pppppppppppps--While the sign at Mister Donut may say "Established in San Francisco", I've never seen one in the States, and neither has anyone I know. Plus, I say "Mr. Donuts".